Monday, June 11, 2012

It happened.

That moment where you want to be happy for your friends, but can't? That happened.

Let me start by saying I have known since I was 13 that havin' babies was not going to be an easy thing for me to do. For a long time, it didn't bother me. I was living life as a college student, a graduate student, and then a teacher. My now-fiancĂ©e and I were just starting a relationship and I didn't have babies on the brain. 

Fast-forward to two days ago. My good friend tells me she's pregnant for the 2nd time in 3 years. Both pregnancies happened the first time they tried. Oh the pain. We are getting married soon and want to start a family, so I have been thinking about that whole "broken uterus" thing a lot lately.

I so desperately want to be happy for them, but my own selfishness gets in the way. I know i'm not alone in this, but boy does it feel sucky. 

1 comment:

  1. I don't know which path it'll be, but somehow, someway, your own family will come. Look what a good start you have already with your husband-to-be.

    Love, hugs, and only the best...